The World U Love

January 1st, 2007

well,well,well….
what do u know, im in new york! i had just celebrated the new year’s eve yesterday n i must say that watching the celebration through the tv is kinda more appealing compared to seeing it live. i mean, with all the people pushing and throwing insults at each other was kind of depressing (n yeah, i got my first punched-in the-face moment. sakitt). plus, you cant even see the singers coz the stage was too high for us to see. but it’s a once in a lifetime experience, so i guess it was kinda worth it, right? =P

eh wait. talking about new year, now i realize that i dont have a single new year’s resolution! but why the heck do i need one. i mean, even the 2003’s new year’s resolution pon hasnt yet accomplished. the 1999’s punye toksah cakap laa…  so i guess sometimes, some of us make resolutions just nak sedapkan hati jekk. or maybe we want to change so bad, but our urge to change suddenly stops in the middle of nowhere. so, r resolutions necessary? well, it depends… maybe not for me though =P

whatever. cheers to 2007 and buh-bye 2006!!!

sedih….

i feel so down, yet i dont know why….

maybe i miss my home

maybe the two previous fu**ing finals didnt go so well

maybe i’m just plain bored, there’s so many things to see but all of them just seemed sooo…empty

maybe the lunch at the dining hall sucked baaadddly (this has nothing to do with the main topic. saja nak kutuk dining hall)

*sigh* all the maybes make me even sadder. (c. told u i like to complicate things than they already r.) dah la. tido lagi besh.

ok. so i am the kind of person who likes to complicate simple things. ok i get it. but isn’t that what a human does best? i mean, yeah we get something simple. n then, we think and anticipate too much of it, thus we kinda complicate the matter. n complicate it even more. n more. n more until we get tired of it. n then we whine to the people who are willing to listen to whatever crap that come out from our mouths. n then we write blogs about it, n explain how complex that thing is. n then we realize that that thing is not that complex after all. after that we feel stupid for a while. the last step? well, the last step would be we, go to sleep and eventually forget about it. 

but why do we always complicate things, when they aren’t meant to be complicated? maybe, just maybe, because of our perspectives that life is meant to be hard, so everything must be made as difficult as possible. we couldn’t believe our ears when people say how easy life can be, whereas it sometimes does. maybe, just maybe, we’re hoping that when we complicate things, we’ll get greater rewards afterwards. or maybe, it’s just the way we are….

dah confused? i guess its time to go to sleep then. *counting the flowers on my bedsheet* ZZZzzzZZZZzzz……..

it’s already 4am and im soooo *beep* tired. but i just cant keep my mind shut from all the thoughts that have been lingering in my head all day. am i thinking too much? maybe

if only i can close my eyes now, n smile in my sleep for those happy dreams. n yet here i am, staring at the laptop’s screen like a moron, while everybody else is sleeping (hell yeah, plus snoring too. hm. minah kantoiii). 

opps.. wut the hell is that noise? ishh. malam2 buta nih. serious aku da takut giler da nih… ok. that’s it. im going to hide under the comforter. takot seh.

i think i’m going insane….

no wait. i AM insane. these exams really drive me up the wall. i have calculus II exam dis very thursday, n yet i dont have any clue wut i should study. tu la. sape sroh slalu p klas 30 minutes late? sape sroh tdo dlm klas for another 30 minutes? (klas tue one hour) sape sroh x wat homework? serve u right…   

i miss pn. raisnee *sob*sob* if only she was here…. da laa rambut cantekk (yeah i know dis is a stupid remark), aper yg die ajar pon senang difaham. huuuuu~

will i pass dis test? HOPEFULLY. eh no. i MUST. I MUST PASS DIS TEST. I…. haih….

Tomorrow is the hari raya day but here i am, hundreds miles away from home, thinking how my loved ones are going to celebrate the big day. *sigh*

well i do wish that they’re going to miss me terribly. Hahaha~ I called my house last nite n my younger brother picked up the phone. So i asked him, "how’s the raya going to be eh?" n then he smugly replied "Oh. Dis is the best hari raya i am ever going to have. can’t believe it will be going on for the next four years ahahaha (ketawa keji). I’m lucky". Lucky eh? well, im damn sure that ur going to be bored as hell on the first day of hari raya. Ade hati nak raya tanpa aku. chiss…

anyway, yeah i miss home. yet, i do hope that my first hari raya here will be one of the best memories ever. i mean, the beautilful view of the fall season is something that i have never experienced before. so i guess im wishing for nothing except a nice, sweet hari raya day. n of course, thank God i have no exam tomorrow. Kalo ade, hell nyer….

so it’s obvious la kan if a blog mentions hari raya, then there must be an unofficial raya speech to be made. So, i wanna wish slamat ari raya la kat korang, whoever is reading my blog nih. maap zahir batin eh. (eh, why is this speech so short??).

n oh yes one friendly reminder —> Whoever touches my kuih raya should be shot….      

Wut I’ve learned from the microwave incident is dat when u do something wrong, juz be honest with urself n the people around u that u r the one who made the mistake becoz first, u can avoid other commotion cam ur floormates x pueh ati ko x ngaku ksalahan ko. N then secondly, it will make u less embarrassing. Ye la. Dak2 floor aku sumernye dah tau i was the one who caused the bad smell at the hallway… hahaha. Konon2 je la nak keep the secret from everyone for the sake of my own reputation. Skali awal2 lagi da kantoi da hahaha. After this i’ll be known as the gurl who doesn’t know how to use the microwave. Yesss! Mari kiter bersama2 menghancurkan reputasi dak2 M’sia!! Anyway, to hell la with reputation…. lalalalalala~

p/s two things i despise the most 1) needles 2) n now microwaves. wakakaka~

it was like any other nite; cold and breezy. since i was hungry like hell, i decided to treat myself with a delicious fillet-o-fish burger. but i had to heat it first. so i put it in the microwave n set the time. sementara tu aku wat la kje laen dulu; aku kemaskan my bed, put my books at the right place, n bla bla bla. minah at the time was talking to her mom on the phone. n then tibe2 jerk, minah let out a gasp "weyh, da brasap tuh!!!". aku pon ngan machonya mnoleh ke blakang. Ya Allah!!! n then i looked up "shit! the fire alarm!!!!!". (malu la wei kalo sumer org tau bilik ko trbakar). lame gaks la fire alarm tu brbunyi. but the most syal thing is kan, xde sorang pon jiran kitorg yg kuar bilik n check out what happened (a good thing actually. terjaga reputasi kitorang). dah la pas2, xde fireman pon yg datang. Wut the hell???? clake sungguh firemen2 nih. makan gaji bute ke hah?! (ye la. bukan diorg spatutnye datang ke kalo fire alarm tu dah brbunyi cam nak rak? kan? KAN??)

being my glabah-self, aku pon lari tron ke front desk kat tingkat satu. tudung hurm, toksah ckp la. ntah mane ntah aku campak. aku pon inform the girl there about my situation; the fire alarm in my room went on, the microwave, n then bla bla bla. pas2 die ckp "What? OK. We’ll call somebody" pas2 aku pon ran upstairs. huhu. bilik da penuh ngan asap. pas2 kitorag bukak tgkap n pasang fan, to clear the ‘atmosphere’ in the room. nasib baek the fire alarm finally went off…

in the end, everything was fine, except my burger la. hangus nak mati. aku da kecewa gler, so i decided to write this post. aih clake tol. aper aku nak makan sahur nih? the food dah hangus already. makan tilam je laaa……..  darn u microwave! although it was clearly my fault, aku x kire. aku nak salahkan microwave jugakk!!! pergh!!!!!

p/s i think i hear some siren outside. OMG. is that the fire brigade??? weh clake. mane aku nak sorok muke nih… anyway, i think once they open the door, i’ll just going to say owh, everything is fine. u can go home now. hahah. padan muke. lembabb~   

To minah, sorry for dragging u into the trouble eh. sabau2…

I was damn worried about the meningitis shot. Bukannye ape la. All my friends had taken the vaccination and the only person left is, well, me. I DID consider taking it, but since there was a lot of other stuff that I need to consider too, it took me about weeks before deciding to take the shot.

First, the vaccination costs about $30, which is a lot of money if you ask me. I thought, damn I can but three McD meals with that same amount of money. Second, it’s gonna hurt. Third, needles make me depressed…. (I hate needles). I was pretty sure that this meningitis disease was nothing until I stumbled across an article about a uiuc student infected with meningitis one year ago. I was definitely shocked that she had both her legs and arms amputated because of the disease!! I mean, gosh. I would die if one of my fingers got chopped off, let alone my arms and legs and other body parts!

I was in shock for the rest of the day, and worried of course thinking that I haven’t done the vaccination. So, under my own initiative, I decide to walk to McKinley Health Center and demanded the vaccination. But I was still scared of needles…. I was thinking too much of the pain that it will cause me that I could care less about what was happening around me. And then there was some woman calling “Rihanna” (alah, org yg nyanyi lagu SOS tuh. Haha) and she led me into a room where there were two other doctors giving injections to some students. The woman asked “You’re Rihanna?”. And I was only like, “Ehm…”. She then introduced herself; her name is Cindy bla bla bla (I had already taken my seat) and then asked me to show my arm and then bla bla bla. And then, she lifted up one tiny needle. I tried to play it cool, but God Knows how scared like hell I was. So I turned my face away from the fearsome needle and started to read Alam Nasyrah and mane2 surah yg ader dlm kpala otak aku waktu tu (yee. Al-Fatihah pon aku bace). “Did you say something?” I heard the doctor asked. I was like, blur gler kan. “Prayers….” I replied. I swear to God the doctor was trying to hide her somehow amused expression. Well, she did give a little laugh though… “Don’t you worry. Nobody ever dies under my attention” she said while smiling. Ye la tu…. How would you know if I would be the first one? Hah? HAH?! And then aku pon kene inject la. Alhamdulillah nothing bad happened. Truth to be said, x sakit pon injection tersebut. Bukan nak belagak ah, tapi series, xde la sakit mane pon… Yet, that doesn’t mean I’m looking forward for another injection. I still despise all the needles that ever existed in the world.

By the way, I’m skipping one class nih. That’s why I have the time to write this crappy piece of my life experience. Xnak bagitau la kelas aper kan… All I know is I am damn terok dalam klas tuh. And who knows? Maybe some of you will inform the professor about me skipping the class? Haha. Looks like I’m being my usual paranoid self again. Aih. Aper2 la…..

I have just received my meningitis shot and it was like YEAHHH!!!